For some reason, the other day, I started thinking about other people holding Will and I panicked a little.
I mean, I already knew it was a reality that others would hold him, but it suddenly hit me like a sack of bricks. I know this sounds terribly selfish, but, he's mine! It's not just strangers I'm talking about either (one strategy I've heard for that is baby-wearing; it makes people less likely to ask), the thought of family holding him even bothers me.
At least the thought of Shawn holding him doesn't bother me (except for when he makes jokes by saying things like, "I'll try not to drop him," that irks me a little), but anyone other than the two of us? The thought makes me freak out a little. He's ours! This is really ridiculous considering that they have more baby-holding experience than I do.
Then I thought, maybe this is a normal new-parent feeling, so I asked Shawn what he thought. He says his dad didn't want anyone to hold him, so that makes me feel a little better about my selfishness.
so very normal for new parents. it's such an amazing, beautiful, HUGE thing! and it's definitely natural to want to enjoy every second of it as is humanly possible. you can aways tell your husband to just have everyone come hold the baby while you're sleeping so you don't miss anything. hah. jk jk
ReplyDeletei never wanted to let anyone hold zebediah. not because i didn't trust them (well, depends on the person - hah), but because i wanted him in my arms, aways. zebediah is two and i still never want to put him down. it's that maternal, loving, protective instinct. and it's beautiful and great.
also, YES to babywearing! it's so great! i still babywear a bit to go hiking and/or do major holiday cooking. so good.
Haha, yeah the sleeping idea would be funny. That's good to know this is a normal feeling, thanks!
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