Dear Will

(I tell myself I will add a photo of the actual journal to this post later, as right now I'm sure my slow-as-molasses internet will not upload it and I don't want to look for my card reader.)

I recently started writing a pregnancy journal of sorts. It's really more like letters to Will. I had really intended to start it a while back but I kept putting it off, unsure of what to write, or knowing what I wanted to write, but unsure about sharing these feelings.

So far, I've mostly written about my fears and worries, and a little about how having a baby in my belly makes me feel physically. I also want to document this time in our lives, so Will can know what our family was like while we were waiting for him to come, and so he can know what the first house he lived in was like. Depending on how long we live here, he may not remember it.

I've thought about posting some of my writings here, but I don't think I want to be that open and this is probably the first time I've held back from posting something personal. I haven't even let Shawn read them yet, though he keeps asking, and I'm sure I will eventually.