If not by faith, than by fear

I wouldn't say I've ever fallen, the word fallen is way too trivial in light of the actual situation we use it to describe, it's more like questioning if I was ever up to begin with. If I was how did I get there, and what was holding me? Lifted on a pedestal, dangling by a thread? The best way to hang would be by the neck, and "falling" then would be irreversible. Surely I haven't ever been there, I've never felt that way, and never felt the need to hold so desperately to something as if my soul depended on it, which it does, so I should, right? So I think I would wish to be hanging by my neck, faith building a wider ledge, and with fear, rather than hope, securing my balance. I'll tie the rope, and stand on the ledge, and wait for You to grab the other end.