I've been stressing out a lot lately, as in more than usual. I'm just really worried about going off to school, getting an apartment, furniture, a job, that sort of stuff. I've lived away from home before, but there was always someone else who was responsible for the basic necessities, now I'll be responsible for those things myself. Not to say I'll be completely on my own though, I will have a roommate, which is some relief, and in the "pro" list of going to USF over UF.
My mom doesn't want me to take my bedroom furniture, which at first I was upset about (even though I didn't say anything), I mean it's my furniture. Now that I think about it though, it's best to leave my nice furniture here and not have to take the risk of it getting messed up. It's the furniture that I want to have when I make a more permanent move, so I'll get some other furniture to go with me over the next 2 years.
The 2 years is another thing that gets to me. 2 more years of school, I just feel old, and I feel like most people that for a 4 year degree are done by my age. It's just another one of those things where 10 years ago I thought I would be at a completely different stage of life now. I think back just 3 years ago and remember telling a co-worker how I really just wanted to be a housewife and a mom. I still wouldn't turn that life down, but I would do it with some freelance writing work on the side; I couldn't give up writing.
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ReplyDeleteI enjoy reading posts like these because you remind me of myself and it is very interesting to see how different you may approach the problem. I also read other peoples blogs too just to see how they do things and experience life as it happens to them. I do also seem to think like you do too. I do the pro v. con thing. I do the fantasy what if scenarios. I recollect and think back and forth in time. It is funny though, I was just talking to my Mom about all these things I do and she told me to stop and think only in the frame of time of the next few hours and to try to plan that way. Of course, look far out ahead, but don't think about doing anything with that time yet, because it isn't necessarily available yet. You don't know if you are going to be there. She also told me to not worry so much about the past because it cannot be changed. Just keep moving forward and learn from the past is her advice. I'm not really writing this hoping you'll take anything away mind you. I just find it really ironic. Because I think like this every day and dwell on things I shouldn't. Also, congratulations on graduating. I hope you do well.
Thanks Scott. It's really hard for me to think "in the now," sometimes I wish I could, but I can't help but feel like everything effects everything else (the pros and cons help me with that too). I think I have a problem confusing my ideals with what is actually realistic, it's hard but at least I've realized it now, for the most part.
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ReplyDeleteHi, I am here by way of my man Carlos. I checked out your blog and I really dig it! I also noticed you are a writer and was wondering if you might want to come down to the pcitylive studio and discuss writing for us? Either way it is nice to meet you and I hope all goes well for you in the future.
Dustin Bryson
Thanks Dustin, nice to meet you as well. Writing for pcitylive sounds great, I'm sending you an email right now.
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